I managed to scare myself away from overdosing. *phew*.
I lost another lb- I'm the thinnest i've been in QUITE a LONG time. 134.8!! Still larger than my average- but getting there! 3 more lbs to go until I meet my "normal highest weight"
On another note, i'm stopping taking my Topamax because it makes me crazy- even though it helps me lose weight(- it's better then diet pills!) because it effs up my birth control pill... and I don't want babiessssss soooooo yeah.
I'm also going to have to get off this combo of anfanil (or whatever it's called) and prozac because they have a BAD interaction (ummm.... hello psychiatrist????) and make me uber zombie-ish- as well as even more suicidal. as you may have been able to tell.
Tomorrow I officially withdraw from college... again.
I've been biting my lip all day and haven't cared. I just don't care anymore, depression is really bad...
ok, well that's all. I'm still alive
toodles
Im glad your alive.
ReplyDeleteI hope things look up for you!
It sucks that you have to withdraw from college darling. Another time I suppose. You'll get there. Much love to you <3
ReplyDeleteHave you tried Cipramil aka Citalopram? and Anafranil aka Clomopramine and prozac does sound a bit weird!
ReplyDeleteThat an SSRI (modern med) and a tri-cyclic (old style anti-depressant) together, which even if it isn't 'bad' is a bit unecessary. A mix of SSRI anti-depressant (such as Prozac or Cipramil) with a mood stabaliser would be more likely to aide the anti-depressant.
I'm glad you didn't OD. Apologies for the pharmacology ramble!
hang in there hun.x
ReplyDeletep.s. you can send those topamax my way if you don't want them =D !