My thoughts...

It's really early and I'm up. I was afraid the laxatives would... have an effect or whatnot lol.
I'm freezing cold :-(

I've decided to change my rules, because I gained a bit of weight and feel like I have been giving myself leeway.
so here goes:

- follow new point system (for school)

- no more than 300cals a day

- no sugar

- no milk

- no soy

- no chocolate

- no peanuts

- light exercise (do chores, dance, walk to school)

How I've been. As you may have noticed, I was going to be hospitalized, but realized I just can't do that because of missing too much school. I was going to be in the hospital for:

a. my depression and suicidal thoughts and anxiety

b. my terrible ocd patterns and rituals

c. my eating disorder and the effects it's having on my body

I didn't follow my psychiatrists advice and am now going to school today- hopefully. I'm freezing cold! Why is it so freakin' cold???
gahhhhh

I figured I should keep tabs on how many diet pills/etc I take in a day:
thus far:

- (2) Xenadrine ultras

- (2) acai berry supplements

- (2) fat burner cleanse

and it's only 5:30am right now lol

If my parents knew I was still taking all this, they would be so upset... especially because the meds cause kidney damage- and already my kidneys are bad...
I expect to get a phone call from dr.sipple today (my psychiatrist) telling me the results of my lab work I had done on friday. Hopefully it's this kind of news
"Hi Susie, I got your labs and your white blood cells are back in normal again, also your kidney function is better"

but I'm  not so sure...

Last night I dreamed that one of my followers reported me for my half-naked photos lol. I knew them in real life and kicked their butt apparently.

ok... well this is getting long, how about some fun photos of pretty skinny people?